I hate my abs!

I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself because today I have eaten 1,000+ more calories than I should have.  I am on a 1500 net calorie plan on my fitness pal.  I have been out of weight loss mode but every time I take myself out of it the pounds creep back on.  I didn't exercise today which is part of the problem.  It wouldn't have been so bad if I had.  I got into the graham crackers and ate almost an entire sleeve...not a huge deal but it is when you go over your calories for the day.  

My lowest weight was back in September and I got down to 127.  I measure my inches too and they are the same everywhere but I have gained an inch right at my belly button.  I currently weigh 135ish...some days it is 137.  So a gain of 8-10 lbs.  While it shows a significant gain over the winter months on the scale it doesn't show in inches or in my clothes to a huge extent.  

Me with the kiddos- jeans are a size 6- I typically wear a 4 or 6 and basically size S shirts.- size 4 dresses

The following is why I beat myself up so much.  My abs are going to be the death of me.  Part of it is having 2 kids and the other part is the damage from being over 200 lbs.  My skin is very stretched out so therefore it sags.  I just HATE it!!!!  Lets not even discuss that it is almost bathing suit season.  I just want my body to look like I work my butt off all the time like I do...ugh!  I know I could eat better...that is my downfall.  I LOVE food!!!

Sorry for the no makeup right before a workout at home pics

Just for my reference

July10/Dec12

I am cleaning out pictures on my computer and I had posted this on fb back in December and wanted to put it somewhere else for reference before I delete it on my computer so this is for me...carry on..have a good day, lol:)

New Blog

Hey guys, I am going to start a new blog that focuses less on my weight loss.  I've shared a lot on here and I just don't like everyone seeing it, lol so I am going to start posting at www.bitsandpiecesofjenniferslife.blogspot.com if you want to find me there:)

I just want to eat....

I just want to eat pizza (more than 2 pieces at a time),cake,brownies, cookies, poptarts,chips,doughnuts,burritos,enchiladas,cereal,etc, etc, etc without having to worry about gaining weight.  I HATE how every bite I eat shows up on my body...argh!  I'm the same size it's not that I am just SO sick of worrying about every bite that goes into my mouth...I'm HUNGRY!!!!

Anybody here?

It is funny to me how facebook, twitter and instagram have taken over and the blog world has slowly dwindled away.  I don't read them as much as I use to anymore and I certainly don't post like I did.  I hope everyone had a blessed Christmas and a Happy New Year!

 We started a new tradition and went on a family run Christmas morning after we opened presents:)

We had a laid back Christmas this year and were super casual for the event:)

Iron Bowl

As you can tell I am outnumbered in our family...I'm the lone Auburn fan:)

I love you to God and back...

I take Hayden to school every morning and Ken takes Kayla.  He works close to her school so we just divide and conquer.  We try to go on breakfast dates with our kids a couple of times a month for some special one on one time.  This morning Ken took Kayla to Ihop and Hayden wanted to go to McDonalds for a McGriddle.  (I had an egg mcmuffin...still semi-healthy.)  Anyway, Hayden said Momma, I love you so much...I said..I love you more...too the moon and back...He said..I love you to God and back:)  Too sweet...I love this little guy and he is growing up WAY too fast!  I can't believe he is almost halfway through Kindergarten.  I feel like he was just born!